Surgery Scheduling

TOmorrow morning im off to Nashville to talk with the Surgeon ( let's not forget his name DR.Cutright ..seriously) and to schedule the surgery, im anxious and happy this is all moving so fast but scared about the recovery and the handling of the kids, but im excited for the durgery im hoping one of them will take a picture for me while im asleep! Anyway look like it might be the begining of Dec or if I really try to plan this all out ill have to wait, its finding the help, after talking to his nurse today she said recovery is great if i play things right but that first week is strictly no movement, so im worried about that. im already getting Christmas decorations up and maybe thinking to start cooking meals and freezing them, getting new beds for the girls and Meadow has no choice now but to bed on a big girl bed.

Im so frustrated about everything, pushing the cxart at Walmart today I can just feel bone digging on bone and its crucially painful, so i dont think i can put this off no more, im really trying to convinve myself that ill come back from this stronger and better and more muscular lol, sometimes it takes the worst for the best to come out!

Ive been reading allot of medical journals and patients blogs stuff like that and i found someone with the same issue i have and a lifter, who new something was wrong and they put them threw PT just like me and actually made things so much worse and now I know why I got worse, PT's are recommended by your regular Doc and they worked me hard, and I got strong but I always left there with a steroid injection, im at the point where im gonna do whats right for me, I probably wont go back to heavy power lifting or olypic lifts, i will only stick to the light weight with higher rep. Ill let you know when the surgery is.

Update

SO after getting my first MRI on my right shoulder, they still wanted to do a closed MRI on my left shoulder and my neck, the first one was an open MRI and still not very clear, anyway the reason for the Neck MRI at the same time was because I was having some Degenerative Disc Disease (ok they call it disease but its in no way progressive or contagious its just called that) SO result were yesterday, first thing is is that my cervical spine ( neck area) has 5 bulging discs out of 7 (7 in total in the cervical area) and its not a good thing at 30years of age, but i can fix that with being real carefully how I position my neck and all that stuff, i have mild pain in my neck but never thought anything of it. That was depressing to hear, then my shoulder result (not good but happy to hear) wear a fully torn bicep tendon at the shoulder, so bad they could hardy see the tendon in the MRI so that cannot heal on its own and why Ive been in constant pain all the time and its turned into severe tendinitis in my shoulders because i was compensating allot, also full partial tear in my left shoulder, and that is at the point were it heal over time or just get it fixed in surgery while there in there reattaching the bicep tendon. I go next week to meet the surgeon and explain how it will all work, they will start with a microscopic camera to look at everything and then proceed to cut and fix everything, recovery time will probably be about a month, they said shoulder surgery is good recovery but strict or everything will detach, so if i have strict recovery I will be 100% and will slow progression i will be better than new. I will probably most likely have surgery the first week of Dec, my hubby will maybe be home mid Dec so I will be able function just not forcing myself allot, ill probably have the kids in day care as much as i can till the 2ND week. I will have to wear a sling all day. The only thing I was really upset about, well I cried over the phone to my hubby saying that i don't want flabby arms, skin and bone, haha I really am paranoid about that. SO what did i do yesterday I walked uphill for an hour and did leg presses the estep gym on post.