Sunday, January 17, 2010

Went away for the weekend so when i get back on Monday night its crunch time people!

IM gonna keep track by journaling mostly and some updates on here, as for nutrition im not sure, ive only been eating when im hungry which backfires on me all the time cause i starve and by the end of night im sitting in my pantry,i know what works for me and its eating often smaller meals so im gonna make an effort to jounal my eating!!

CAnt wait to get back to it, once again ill be lifting really light so just remember if it wasnt for my surgery id probably crush you! lol

did i mention its 75 degrees here in Fayettenam! ugh

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Past days

Tuesday: 8x250 meter row

Wednesday: same as Tuesday, I've hesitated starting my modified version of strenght because I'm leaving for a few days,

I didn't keep a specific pace ,I only did this at level 1 (usually like to do it at 8) but that one feels like a level 8 right now, its not bad on my shoulder cause there's no bouncing just sore from under use, if anything i feel like the rowing is helping me with my back strenght since i cant really lift for my back.

Today, went for a good hour walk with Michelle with some hills, I forgot how just speed walking is killer, and when i think about how I use to stay in shape on top of lifting i walked allot , few miles everyday, so i think i will start with this, that running the other really made my shoulder ache and I'm still feeling like its out of place so listening to the body.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

So I'm gonna get back on track with blogging because in the past keeping track is what worked for me so why cant i just apply my good education to myself!

The Shoulder situation, well Ive healed well but still lots of recovery to come, Ive mainly been trying to walk and i know theres so many others i can do but i guess my mentally is to give up if i cant go all out, i really have a hard time with baby steps. I'm in lots of pain now in the opposite shoulder which scars me because its the same feeling i had with my recovering shoulder, i can carry my kids but i look like Ive never lifted in my life cause its a struggle. I have a hard time when I'm holding the kids hand with that arm because i few times it felt like it was coming out of the socket, i i know now i need to pace it out, for example last night i went to Estep originally to walk uphill on the treadmill and of course there men and women running so what did i do I STARTED RUNNING, i ran 2 miles and shouldn't have, as much as i was trying to keep my arm tight to my body the bouncing motion really hurt. Strenght training and all other training is my passion, I love to learn more about it everyday and teach it or show people, to see them excel, but why cant i coach myself?? Well life happens right? this past year was difficult for me, back home my mother being sick and felling guilty that i cant help her, the ongoing shoulder thing, the hubby being gone almost the whole year and year to come, and everything just hit me. I felt like i let everything make me fall apart. Well Ive accepted allot this year and that is to focus on one thing! GOD. I'm learning not too obsess about things or if i didn't workout cause i use to let that take over my day or vacation. Right now I'm just gonna stick to a plan and not get off track and i mean even if i cant do as much as i use to just do what i can, when i can. I'm seeing the affect on my girls with daddy being gone so much an they need me now.

SO off to Crossfit today, trying to choose between strenght workouts or extremely modified WOD's.

Now please forgive me cause every now and then i might have to talk about when i Back Squated 225lbs ( yes im one of those people and i think you all know that already) lol