So I'm gonna get back on track with blogging because in the past keeping track is what worked for me so why cant i just apply my good education to myself!

The Shoulder situation, well Ive healed well but still lots of recovery to come, Ive mainly been trying to walk and i know theres so many others i can do but i guess my mentally is to give up if i cant go all out, i really have a hard time with baby steps. I'm in lots of pain now in the opposite shoulder which scars me because its the same feeling i had with my recovering shoulder, i can carry my kids but i look like Ive never lifted in my life cause its a struggle. I have a hard time when I'm holding the kids hand with that arm because i few times it felt like it was coming out of the socket, i i know now i need to pace it out, for example last night i went to Estep originally to walk uphill on the treadmill and of course there men and women running so what did i do I STARTED RUNNING, i ran 2 miles and shouldn't have, as much as i was trying to keep my arm tight to my body the bouncing motion really hurt. Strenght training and all other training is my passion, I love to learn more about it everyday and teach it or show people, to see them excel, but why cant i coach myself?? Well life happens right? this past year was difficult for me, back home my mother being sick and felling guilty that i cant help her, the ongoing shoulder thing, the hubby being gone almost the whole year and year to come, and everything just hit me. I felt like i let everything make me fall apart. Well Ive accepted allot this year and that is to focus on one thing! GOD. I'm learning not too obsess about things or if i didn't workout cause i use to let that take over my day or vacation. Right now I'm just gonna stick to a plan and not get off track and i mean even if i cant do as much as i use to just do what i can, when i can. I'm seeing the affect on my girls with daddy being gone so much an they need me now.

SO off to Crossfit today, trying to choose between strenght workouts or extremely modified WOD's.

Now please forgive me cause every now and then i might have to talk about when i Back Squated 225lbs ( yes im one of those people and i think you all know that already) lol