Feel like Ive slacked a bit this week probably more with my eating and not weighing my food I still ate good but a few days of not weighing my food definitely felt a difference, back a it today and i feel better mentally and physically, this week I'm gonna push a little harder with strenght and some endurance.

Getting close to the 180's

I definitely don't believe in the numbers but man mine are so high, and i feel like I'm 140lbs muscular with all the will power Ive ever had, but then I'm reminded when I sit down and i can play qith my squishy tummy, I don't mind it anymore cause I know eventually it will be gone i just hope this time i can realize where I once was and appreciate the progress I'm making.

I haven't posted in the past couple weeks cause m trying to catch up with life in general, why is it so hard AGH but just like Sara Fragaso from Everyday Paleo said in her blog that everything is hard, laundry, putting the kids to bed and all that. I real feel like I'm staring into nowhere sometimes thinking "is this my life" but I'm accepting what God has for me right now just hard to swallow sometimes ya know!

So last Saturday my weigh in was 192lbs ( just wanna get into the 180's) ILL TAKE IT!!

I wont deny that the classes at the Y like body pump are great except they dont want you to go to heavy i noticed a few comments the instructor makes and i understand but i know my own limits and yesterdays class felt like a WOD ( the intensity of it) but with allot of breaks so I'm actually sore today!

I miss crossfit and the strenght part of it, i miss the drive of it so now that I'm set up in the garage i can get started, its freezing in our garage so i need to get a heater and then i can take the kiddos out there.

Today's weigh in!

today i got weighed and as exactly 195lbs so i lost 1.7lbs in 2 weeks cause 2 weeks ago i was 196 and some change, had to look back cause im still better with writting all my workouts on paper, that i pretty good considering i let myself indulge a few times over new years when family was here, and it was all controlled ( ate a whole container 2cups in total of the dairy free organicecoconut icecream made with all natural ingredients even sweetened with agave and that was a whole 650 caloried indulgence and didnt even feel nasty the next day)and worth every bite, so im happy, and cant wait to get down in the 180"s

the best feeling is i still feel very muscular, dont wanna loose that precious muscle and im craving some heavy high rep lifting.


Be honest arent you all shocked when you hear my weight??? seriously cmon it shocks me everytime i weight myself!

ok so about 9weeks ago I started weight watchers, and by using their guidelines and trying to keep it as clean as possible (meats, veggies,fruit) some bread and some starches and a treat once a day, here are the results:

I will post week by week next time:

Sarted at 210lbs ( yes people that two hundred and ten poundsthis is my struggle)

today i am 196lbs so i probably weight ust as much as the average guy my husband weighs 195lbs so its pretty sad, dont get me wrong im happy theres progress but im stuck in a fat suit for a few moremonths. im encourage by the progress but when someone tells me " wow you look great" it drives me crazy cause deep down inside i know what it feels like to be in my best shape ever and just wish i can get there faster but slow wins the race. The amazing thing is that i havent lost any strenght at all i feel like after having baby # 3 everything about me physically has felt great except some hip pain but im impressed wit what i still able to do, i defenitly wanna be careful running now because i didnt realize what effect this extra weight on me can have so im taking it easy on runs ( trainin for the nashville half in april) so thos are gonna have to stay slow paces cause im afraid my joints are gonna start feeling it!

SO THERE IT IS PEOPLE, PICK UP YOUR JAW OFF THE TABLE, YES NATALIE WEIGHS THAT MUCH AND I CAN PROBABLY THROW YOU OVER MY SHOLDER.

OK here i go again!

I mean at blogging not a new resolution, i will update this evening and give you some shocking numbers!