Surgery Scheduling

TOmorrow morning im off to Nashville to talk with the Surgeon ( let's not forget his name DR.Cutright ..seriously) and to schedule the surgery, im anxious and happy this is all moving so fast but scared about the recovery and the handling of the kids, but im excited for the durgery im hoping one of them will take a picture for me while im asleep! Anyway look like it might be the begining of Dec or if I really try to plan this all out ill have to wait, its finding the help, after talking to his nurse today she said recovery is great if i play things right but that first week is strictly no movement, so im worried about that. im already getting Christmas decorations up and maybe thinking to start cooking meals and freezing them, getting new beds for the girls and Meadow has no choice now but to bed on a big girl bed.

Im so frustrated about everything, pushing the cxart at Walmart today I can just feel bone digging on bone and its crucially painful, so i dont think i can put this off no more, im really trying to convinve myself that ill come back from this stronger and better and more muscular lol, sometimes it takes the worst for the best to come out!

Ive been reading allot of medical journals and patients blogs stuff like that and i found someone with the same issue i have and a lifter, who new something was wrong and they put them threw PT just like me and actually made things so much worse and now I know why I got worse, PT's are recommended by your regular Doc and they worked me hard, and I got strong but I always left there with a steroid injection, im at the point where im gonna do whats right for me, I probably wont go back to heavy power lifting or olypic lifts, i will only stick to the light weight with higher rep. Ill let you know when the surgery is.

Update

SO after getting my first MRI on my right shoulder, they still wanted to do a closed MRI on my left shoulder and my neck, the first one was an open MRI and still not very clear, anyway the reason for the Neck MRI at the same time was because I was having some Degenerative Disc Disease (ok they call it disease but its in no way progressive or contagious its just called that) SO result were yesterday, first thing is is that my cervical spine ( neck area) has 5 bulging discs out of 7 (7 in total in the cervical area) and its not a good thing at 30years of age, but i can fix that with being real carefully how I position my neck and all that stuff, i have mild pain in my neck but never thought anything of it. That was depressing to hear, then my shoulder result (not good but happy to hear) wear a fully torn bicep tendon at the shoulder, so bad they could hardy see the tendon in the MRI so that cannot heal on its own and why Ive been in constant pain all the time and its turned into severe tendinitis in my shoulders because i was compensating allot, also full partial tear in my left shoulder, and that is at the point were it heal over time or just get it fixed in surgery while there in there reattaching the bicep tendon. I go next week to meet the surgeon and explain how it will all work, they will start with a microscopic camera to look at everything and then proceed to cut and fix everything, recovery time will probably be about a month, they said shoulder surgery is good recovery but strict or everything will detach, so if i have strict recovery I will be 100% and will slow progression i will be better than new. I will probably most likely have surgery the first week of Dec, my hubby will maybe be home mid Dec so I will be able function just not forcing myself allot, ill probably have the kids in day care as much as i can till the 2ND week. I will have to wear a sling all day. The only thing I was really upset about, well I cried over the phone to my hubby saying that i don't want flabby arms, skin and bone, haha I really am paranoid about that. SO what did i do yesterday I walked uphill for an hour and did leg presses the estep gym on post.

So The past few days I have been doing cardio I h avent touched any weight in ahwile, I feel horrible and Im always in pain, I go next week to a Ortho Surgeon to give me the results of my MRI. Im going tomorrow to get a shot in my shoulder, so that will help for a few days, ive been trying to stay awau from pain meds but im gonn ahave to ask for more tomorrow because I cant take it no more, the nights are horrible, sometimes I wake up to no feeling in my arm and sometimes it pops so bad i cry. I just wanna know what exactly is wrong and how to fix it so i can start having some hope again.

Got my MRI today, was longer than expected was in the machine exactly 47min and i feel asleep but it makes such weird noise i kept waking up scared lol the other thing i notice still till now i feel really sick to my stomach, maybe the magnetic energy from the machine?? but i was only able to run 20 min partly cause i felt sick and because my knee is hurting, did lunges and sit ups at home (todays WOD).

Ill have results in a couple of days!!

friday

55:00 min elliptical not using arms its so brutal not that i dont have the endurance i just go insane on there for that long thanfully ive discovered listening to sermons on my Ipod!!

Saturday did the same but only 45min and used the leg press machine

10x10 110lbs I cant put anymore weight on on my with back squats my shoulders kill.

today did 40min run on treadmill and in the monring did about 300 squats only cause i was trying to pump up amanda and Katie.

Im really down about my working out i really cant lift much and my nutrition has been so horrible i can feel some weight creep up on me, all this cardio is not doing anything unless i eat well, so i need to buck up. ANywho i get an MRI next week ill know a date in the next couple of days, i finally gave in to my doctors offer of taking pain meds cause its just unbearable now. Lately taking a step back i realized how much i enjoy watching others and correcting them ive never paid attention till now and i love teaching and showing. hopefully Katie didnt mind me yelling at her threw the squats! But thats what its all about the intensity, I noticed she kept resting and drinking water but not cause she was smoked but then i realized you can either make the WOD easy or give it your all and SUCK, hopefully i can start practicing what i preach again on of these days. It sad because i think once we figure out this shoulder problem im gonna really cut back on lifting for PR's well maybe well see cause sometimes i think "screw it im gonna snatch 75lbs 75 reps and just deal with the pain" RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

50 min run YUK YUK but i did feel good after especially after spending the day at Walmart and Hospital.

Update, i was called to go to Radiology to put my request for MRI but there was some info missing from my Pain management clinic, so ill know tomorrow when i finally get that MRI. One of the ladies at the clinic was asking me if i had any neck problems, and i remember about 6months ago i had an x-ray to look at the shoulder and the Doc mentioned he seen that my neck looked well in my words weird and when she asked me the question i got scared cause they think it might also be a problem in my upper neck like a herniated disc that is cutting off circulation to the nerves(overtime will damage the nerves) in my shoulders which cause allot of pain and loss of feeling which i do feel throughout the day.Guess ill wait for the results. The pain has been so dad I cant even sleep. Ugh

Monday

Elizabeth
21-15-9
135 cleans
ring dips

i used 65 ( being careful for shoulder )
defenitly needed to use 85 on this cause i didnt even break a sweat

time was like 4:50 or 57

PM ran 50minstraight but slow (just trying to build my endurance not only for running)

Today

No CFT for me as much as id love the the pulling of my hsoulder on DL and lifting the SP theres no way right now, im not feeling to much pain but i can feel a little after the shot so i know ill have a good couple of weeks that i can workout with lifting, been trying to do push ups and it still hurts allot but doing it in sets.

Still no word from Ortho, i should be hearing from them really soon

45min stair climbing, really it sucked so bad but kept a good pace and would do some intervals of high steps.

Thankfully i just updated some music on my iphone cause it really sucked